When I first started blogging it was to clear my mind. It was an intimate detail of what was going on in this sometimes crazy head. It was a way to vent to myself about myself. It was a way to talk to God and put my thoughts on papers. Expressing myself in ink so that I could check my progress or lack there of. Blogging was my outlet...and there wasn't anyone who read that blog.
Now I have people reading and I miss the ability to express myself. I thought about it long and hard today and have decided to continue to express myself. This has been my outlet for years and I plan on continuing.
We have a rule in our house that goes something like this. If you do something wrong you get in trouble....if you do something wrong and lie to us about it you will get in serious trouble. It is our way of teaching the girls that it is better to take responsibilities for their actions and get in a little bit of trouble rather than hiding things and getting caught later and being in serious trouble. I believe it is a work in progress but it is working.
I love my family and we have some wonderful qualities but we also have a major flaw...It has been passed down for generations. Slowly and surely many of us are recognizing this flaw and making steps to eliminate it. Dont get me wrong, this doesn't pertain to everyone. This flaw is the ability to cover things up, we are fast talkers, we can deceive, we can lie, we can talk our way out of almost anything...
It took me a lot of years to realize that if I did things the right way and took responsibility for my actions, there would be less pain, less heartache and less turmoil in the long run. Dont get me wrong, I still make mistakes and try to cover them up, but in the back of my mind I know that I am wrong and need to confess. Even when I try and cover something up, it eats at me until I have to fess up.
The reason this is on my mind is I dont want to pass this flaw to my children. I dont want my kids to have the ability to cover things up, to be deceitful. I have learned that this type of behavior can be passed down at an early age and I am curious as to how much of this my oldest has seen. My question now is how do you reverse it? How do you teach someone that already has it ingrained in their minds that it is ok to tell stories? That it is ok lie?
My prayer tonight is that the trends of our past can be erased....that those who haven't learned to accept themselves as who they are and take responsibility for their actions can do so....that we can reverse this flaw that many in my family have so that it doesn't impact the future generations.
Both boys had a good morning. Cam woke up before his alarm clock and that beautiful smile was glowing. Cayden slept through the alarm but woke up quickly after. Both boys got ready for school and were excited about going. The report is that school went well for both boys.
The evening was a little rough. When Cayden talks to April he really starts missing her. I understand this but not on his level. It is tough figuring out away to comfort him. It is truly going to be a struggle if things do not change. We continue to shower him with love and grace. I truly hate seeing his broken heart....
Tomorrow mom is coming into town and we are really looking forward to it. She has already said that she wants to watch the kids so that Rebecca and I get a chance to go out on a date!!! I can't wait!
To be continued......
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We have been wanting to take the girls, but with school starting and me starting back to work, it just has not worked out. This weekend, I think your Mom would be disappointed if we stole them from her... I know she wants to spend time with them and the boys. We will be over some to see everyone though. Been trying to let the boys bond with your family.
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