Worry

I had one of those shift where we didn't get any sleep.  Up all night saving the young people who get stupid drunk during their first year of college...Also helping out those same young people who don't know how to turn off the water to the toilet so it floods the entire floor of their apartment complex.  Needless to say when I get home after getting 2 hours of sleep at work: I was dead tired...

I didn't want to go to Church last night at all.  I wanted to sit my fat butt on the couch, drink a cold drink and watch the rest of the Tech game....then pass out!  Well Rebecca insisted we go to church and I reluctantly said ok....

The service was about worry... Preaching out of Matthew 6 it got me thinking about how weak I truly am in trusting the Lord.  I worry about everything.  I worry if I am doing the right things for my girls.  I worry if I am being the man my wife wants me to be or deserves. I worry about silly trivial things at work.. I worry if we are handling the situation we are in right now the correct way.  I worry that the parents of these boys are doing what they need to do to get these kids back. I worry.....I worry and I worry.....and it is not a great feeling..

Do I really trust the Lord?  That is the question.....How do I not worry when everything around me is concerning? How do I look into the eyes of my girls and worry if this is creating a gap in our relationship; and tell them it is going to be ok?  It is my goal this week to see if I can drop my worries and just trust God in this situation.

I understand it is normal to worry about everything but what does that say about me and my walk?  It really bothered me last night that I learned how weak I am in this area...It's almost a slap in the face of God.....

Will this work out?  I'm not going to worry about it...