Emotions

I'm starting this blog by saying that I have an amazing wife.  She has been through thick and thin with me, from dealing with deployments (twice), being a single mother while I was away and many other issues that have come her way during our marriage.  She has been such a trooper during this transition and it makes my heart smile knowing that no matter what type of obstacle gets thrown our way, she will be there with me hand in hand always.

I am not the smartest person in the world.  I am not the best at anything I do.  I have more faults than I can count and have struggles that would shock anyone.  Saying this, it is who I am.  I know who I am and use my strengths to overcome my weaknesses.  I am not afraid to take criticism, if others give me advice, I take the time to listen and try to make changes.  I am not afraid of someone giving it to me straight, as a matter of fact, I like it.  It may upset me, it may piss me off, but I have the inner strength to keep my mouth shut and prove people wrong. 

Today was an emotional day and I am lost trying to figure out how to handle it. Should I be straight forward? Should I sugar coat the issues?  Should I lay it all out there in a hope that the message will get across?  I really do not know.  I know this all seems like I'm rambling and I probably am.  I just have so many thoughts running through my head and the inability to write them down. 

I don't have all the answers but this I know...There is right and wrong, safe and unsafe, smart and stupid, and honest and deceit and if you choose one of that later, it will lead to a world of problems....I'm not the answer for these boys.  I blog about how I see them change in their daily lives while living with us....I don't know these boys very well.  I don't know how they acted before they came here, all I know is what I see and what I see are two boys who have huge heart, love attention, enjoy being encouraged and need affection....I'm not saying they were not loved before(they were).  I'm not saying they didn't get attention, I'm not saying that they didn't recieve encouragement...I'm saying that I see a difference in their attitudes and mannerisms when they are praised in certain ways.  We are not perfect...We have faults....But I promise you that if anyone points out our faults we do not argue with them, we take their advice with a smile and try to apply it to our lives....this situation sucks for all involved but not nearly as much for the two knuckleheads that are laying in their beds as I write this blog....My prayer tonight is that everyone will stop trying to make people think they are doing the right thing and instead just do the right thing...Control your emotions, learn from your mistakes and become who you were created to be...

On a positive note, because of my beautiful wife I was able to take my daughter on a date tonight....It is moments like these that shape her future and I love every minute of it...I also know that if she is the same way at 16 as she is now, I wont have to worry about her going on second dates...(she will talk their ears off!!!!)

To be continued...